Friday, October 02, 2009

Lost and Found in the Dark





What do we like about the dark? What about it scares us? Why would we be lost without it?

We all have an image of ourselves that we choose to believe is our identity; that part of us that is uniquely who we are as opposed to anyone else. It makes us who we are, like a psychological, ethical fingerprint. In the dark, people are rarely the same as they were in the light. WHY? Perhaps their insecurities, fears and hopes are hidden. The disturbing heart of darkness is its power to reveal as much as conceal. Darkness might be the best mirror of what we don't see or don't want shown.

Even as children, many of us were afraid of the dark. The noises and emotions that random happenings create because of the lack of interaction of all the human senses tend to dominate our minds. On the other hand, the fact is that more fear comes from the forced usage of any other senses without sight. I wonder if Judas kissed Jesus with his eyes closed? I've been in the ocean dogpaddlingwhen something brushed my calf from below. Not being able increased the level of fear! Not to mention not being able to swim. On another occassion, I swam/floated through an underwater tunnel for 300 yards mostly in the dark. I can still remember listening to the loud sound of my own breathing. I can still feel the vibration of my heartbeat in the water as my eyes fixed on the tiny hole of light at the end of my journey. In Redemption Road, a kid puts a large rubber snake in his father's bed, under the foot of the covers. His reaction is immediate when his toes make contact. Even when we are in a surrounding we consider safe, darkness still catches us offguard. Maybe mirrors shouldnt be shiny; but dark.


So which of us is us: the one in the dark or the one in the light? Can one exist without the other?

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M